I Miss You So

You will never ever know how much i missed those days when you will always "be there" for me, at any time but not anywhere, mentally but not physically, words but not hugs, dreams but not reality.. Any hoots, you were still "there" for me. But those were my memories now, something that i sometimes wonder, is it even worthy for me to remember, about things and dreams that never came true and probably will never ever come true...
I am being stupid and ignorant, i know. But i miss you~

That was just a sudden momento that i was having, sudden loneliness i guess. Anyhow, today was a total shit day can! Classes all got canceled except for one where i only sit there and see and listen to other's presentation. Not that i had a hard time doing that but it is because i went to my college which is damn farking far by the way and just sit there and listen to people's presentation? How "Awesome" is that?! I could never ever imagine that.

I am a lonely bitch? To come to the think of it, i guess the answer to the question is a big YES. I exercises alone and prefers no disturbances, i study at MacD alone with my Choco Sundae almost everyday now waiting for mum to go home, i love to go watch a movie all by myself, i love to go shopping alone cause that's when i can enjoy and see what i want to see, i love to appear "Busy" on MSN when to the actual fact that i am not busy at all, like now, etc. Bottom line is, i am quite a loner i must say what turf.

Someone nearly hit another someone on the bus today cause the second someone was trying to tackle a girl someone and the second someone got his legs sprawled across the bus walkway. So when the first someone had dond with his ciggies at the door, this someone wanted to walk inside to get a seat. Remember how the second someone's leg were sprawled over the floor? So the first someone did not notice the second someone's leg and the second someone too did not notice the first someone wanted to walk to the back. And the first someone tripped and nearly fell face flat to the ground. And first someone got massively angry and pulled out his hand choker and wanted to hit the second someone with it and i bet blood WILL denitely ooze out if the fight were to happen. Sadly but luckily, it din't happen. Sad cause it has been so long since i witness fightings. Luckily is because i was right in front of it and if it really happen, i might either get a great fear that the first someone might hit me too or the blood will get splashed on me, either one isn't beneficial to me. Then the first someone went to the back and sat down and started to cough like real damn loud and fake as if his lungs were to burst open and thus the wide spread of A (H1N1) what turf. Annoying la~ Crazy first someone.

*i noted alot of someone cause i don't want to be racist*

Then met up with mummy and we went for a little shopping. I die die also want to get something there so i resorted to new sneakers cause i see no platforms or stillettos that interest me. Mad happy? Hell yeah!
And i know my post ain't related at all but what the hell, and when i look back at my post a year later or so, i would be so glad what has happen to me as i grow older and hope some day i will be close and by your side.

It Is That Time of The Year

AGAIN.

Which i hated so much and a tiny fear? I don't know whether should i fear or should i be really annoyed cause people will keep talking about it, humming on it, walking the walks on it and even sleeping the sheets on the same blardy topic for the whole entire month.

NO. IT ISN'T FOOTBALL.
NAH~ IT ISN'T HOT CHICKS AT F1 CIRCUIT.
AND DEFINITELY NOT A(H1N1)

It's the Ghost Festival. =.= which is also my birthday for the lunar calendar and also my english birthday as how the chinese says it. This time around, both of the two different era falls on one same fated day and happens to be my birthday. No worries, i don't jinx people and i do count myself lucky at most of the time.

WHYYY??

• I have loads of friend and thank god i am born with a cheerful personality, thus the easier it is to make friends. Bottom line is, i am not a nerd that reads all day long day and night which i think people like that are totally lifeless and they are better of dead that staying alove and feels boring all the time then wandering why people ignore them and doesn't even want to be friends with them. Mirror yourself hunn~
• Even so i don't have a very good and rich to start with background, my mum has also single handedly worked and pay of debts and also to support me and brother to where we are now. I am now doing my Year 2 of TARC and i will be graduating very soon. All thanks to my mum and definitely god who placed such strong and persistent woman in my life and that has helped me through.
• Here is the best part, so i gambled in college today and hell yes, we can gamble publicly in college. i still remember those days when i was in high school, we gambled too but we used to swipe down all our cards whenever there is ANYONE that walked past our class cause if we were caught gambling, we would have consequences to bear with. Then i played with the besttie and we get to win in all sorts and kinds of weird and farking funny situation. we really laughed our ass off for today. REALLY.

Ok~ so that has got nothing to do with me being lucky. blueks~ Anyway, i love Ghost Festival cause it is my birthday and i hate it too cause i will be flooded with ghost stories through the whole month, maybe ghost emails too and to begin with i saw "Michael Jackson's Ghost" in YouTube! what turf can!!

Soft Skills Suit for Soft Mens

I know that that is a misleading title and way out of what u want to blog about today but there is a bit of relation to it into which i would tell later, till almost the end of the post.

We have been informed about this soft skills seminar in which the school has made it compulsory for all of us(says the English coordinator) to take part and get the certificate which is very much sort after in today's working world. He even said that TARC students has bad reputations for our soft skill skills but has a very impressive notation for our studies. In another way it meant that TARC students are book nerd and not street smart la! And i am not a nerd but rather a street smart girl! xD
So me and the bestties semangat-ed and went and sign up for it. And we ended up with a whole bunch of juniors who have utterly no respect for seniors. Doubt that they know we were a year elder, but they shouldn't be so rude to ANYONE,right? And they ACTUALLY looked older than us! Cause i thought they were, till the moment i saw the attendance list! They were all 09' and only the three of us are 08' what turf.

So the rude part. Originated from the soft men itself.. As i had mentioned, we went in late cause they had a sudden change of classroom and we were unnotify by anyone but alas we found it out ourselves, thanks to no one. And they had actually started and was around 5 minutes ahead of us doing the first activity. Since we are late, we have no rights to choose anyone or to add anyone else to be a group with us, so we went solo three! And remember that we were 5 minutes behind? So when the Missus noted that that is the ending to the first activity, one of the besstie was still glueing some thing on to the mahjung sheet. Then the farking soft guy said "erhem~ey ey ey~".

EY YOUR OWN FARKING SOFT AND GAY ARSE CAN?!
LIKE HELLO!!!

Changed of class but no one was sent to stand at the original place to inform to rest who comes just on time, our fault ar? You all started ahead so long ago and we only stick one farking picture to our sheet, cannot is it? That did not even take 2 seconds ok! And he HAVE to erhem la now! knnbccb!
FYI, people, guys espeacially who acted in such a way are always 98% gay! Or no, they are the super soft type that will eventually turn to being GAY! No offense, i have nothing against or for gays but... I DISLIKE THAT GUY WHO ERHEM ERHEM US! go fly your own kite.

*commercial time*


The four teachers that conducted this seminar through out. Awesome people! We got so much help from them cause we had only three member in the group whereas the rest had the whole village to them, got alot of help from them cause we are so pretty like that what turf !! xD

Okay~ then there is another bitch that has no knowledge of what is called TIDINESS, RESPONSIBILITY, SMART & RESPECT.
We are all assigned with activities which all has an involvement of newspapers. Plenty and loads of cutting and pasting, so they are a lot of bits and shreds of paper that shud be expected laying all across the floor. We cleaned up our place way early before anyone could finish. Then the apek girl in front of our group said this when it was time for their group to clean up, "wah! the people behind us smart lo.. kicked all the rubbish to us."

*shows middle finger*
MAHAI! HER WHICH BLARDY EYES SAW WE KICK THOSE PAPERS TO THEM HUH?

In a nutshell, i shall go to the next soft skill seminar and persuade more of our friends to join.

The only malay teacher that i is approve of my "people-suppose-to-have" English status cause she speak so damn well ok!
And she reminds me of my beloved Biology teacher during high school named, DORAEMON!



THOUGH WE CAME IN LATE...
THOUGH WE WERE SO DARN BLUR...
WE GET THE UNEXPECTED...
THOUGH WE HAD ONLY THREE MEMBERS IN OUR GROUP..

WE STILL WON SOMETHING OK!
lame stuffs but i happy la that this rude people knows that they are more people that are more atas and superior that you ok!

For Covers

Of the post below of course!

To those that came and read all the shouldn't-be-there-words, i apologized and thank you(what turf apologize and thank you?!)a lot for bearing with my rant. To come to the think of it, you all came willingly! Lol~ So i take back my apologies can?, cause i sound retard there, apologizing and thank you-ing at the same time! xD

To those too that wanders, yes, he is a GUY/MAN/BOY whatever, i don't care but not a girl for sure! Ah gua? I don't know! Go figure! Hehehe~
Met up with YingZi today! Wasn't suppose to go loiter around malls and arcading cause i said i want to eat up my Mac and then sit there and stuff my fat face with books, lecture note and tutorials that i have yet to had the time to go study on it. Well, it lasted for a good two hours or so, till the gang arrives! Then i even tried to hint that i want to sit there and study then they come pick me up what turf when they are ready to go to the OTHER mall. Alas, my determination wasn't strong enough and got lured into the Hell of Loitering! HAHA!

I PARA PARA PARADISED TODAY!
MAD HAPPY CAN!
WANTED TO LEARN IT LIKE SINCE DON'T KNOW WHEN!

But none of my friends knew! And now all thanks to YingZi! She damn awesome ok! Looking at her getting all ready to slap her hands sideways back forth up down, instanly i know that she is CLUBBING KAKI!!!!
She super good at Para Para Paradise! But don't know Dance Dance Revolution! Aww~ Nevermind! Jess can teach! Lol~

AWESOME DUDE IN PURPLE!


WHITE GIRL SO KAWAII!

Ar!! So awesome! I have got to practice more! Ciau people!

MSN DickHeads

I know that i don't blog as often as i do last time and i shouldn't make my small comeback with a rant but WITHOUT this incident, thus i wouldn't be blogging today. You can either choose to read or just shut up and not read. Yes, will be filled with all words cause i don't want to disgust myself to my own blog if i post this dickhead's pictures here.

My MSN isn't that confidential at all since i post it at my Facebook. Ok~ ONLY at facebook. And maybe Friendster? Yes, i once Friendster-ed, but i gave up on it now cause it's just so boring. Adding and got added by people that i don't know. Fond memories were built there with a Sabah chic that i have not met before.
So yea. Long ago, think it was two years back when i still Friendster, someone that goes by the name Toro88 added me up. I am the kind of person that i will just approve and i don't stream friends, cause if i do stream then what is the purpose of me having a Friendster account if i were to mix back with the people that i know, right?

Then this Toro88 added me on msn. Now remembering that i HAD NEVER EVER posted my MSN there before, so how the heck he know my MSN shall remain as a mystery even to myself. I am all obliged for new people to add me up just for a chat or you just want to pour your heart out to a total stranger you do not know, then that is fine with me as long as i am free to hear your heart out. Cause i treat my MSN as a platform to stay in contact with friends that i made all this 19 years that i live and i heart them ALL. Nevertheless, there are still plenty of rooms for new mates, maybe i could find my soulmate too. Lol what turf, back to the story.
Toro88 started his very first conversation by saying "HI" to me and i replied in the same manner, thinking that this must be someone that i know cause he did not put a picture and all i see was the old msn's blue man.

The conversation for the day went on and on aimlessly and quite useless, to me, which was about how sad he was not having any girlfriends till this day. I assume he is 19 years old too at that time cause he said he know some of the people that i know but i pretended that i did not know them when i was talking to Toro88. Then got quite fed up with his whining of the same topic after 3 days(yes he chat with me for 3 days continously), i then asked to have a look at his picture. Here, i have to note that i don't make friends by looks, i made friends with ALL that i feel that i can click with. So, he told me that he actually added me on Friendster and so i went and checked. Terrible, fugly looking, trying to be goth but failed boy. Instantly the word "DESPO" and "INSANE" filled my mind, but i continued convos with him through MSN for a week, daily that is, on the same fucking NO-GF topic! Mahai! Not my business!

Suddenly he said that he actually seen me in real life before! Then i went like "what turf! since when I see you before! ninaubu, don't pretend close lo" in my heart la. What shocked me most is that, he CLAIMS to be my first love, Teck Yuan's cousin!! *shows middle finger* You think i wouldn't know my then bf's family members ar?! I was with him for blardy 2 years ok! I have seen and know everyone in the family ok excluding those that had passed away that is.
Trying to play along, i said "No way! I don't believe, ok then you tell me what is Teck Yuan's surname, then i might believe..", and knowing that wouldn't solve the mystery, he KNOWS Teck Yuan's surname. Predictable. If Toro88 were in the same high school with me then he would SURELY know me and my then bf, cause we were like the two most popular person that who happens to love then be with each other, we were like the Super Couples then. xD *slaps self out of memories*

Not enough with the claimings, he even "screwed" my mind by saying MY surname! Yes! My blardy no-one-knows-or-remember-surname cause it was said to be "unique" then. I was so awestruck that i feel it is creepy so i stopped talking to him since then. But he kept "HI" me everyday without fail and all i did was just scroll my mouse to the top corner right and press X. End of story.
Weeks later when i went out for outings with my babes, the high school babes, one of them asked me whether i know Toro88 or not! Whether you believe it or no, i felt like i was in some horror film entitled "Invisible Stalker" something like that the moment she mentioned the name. Then i also cuak and tell her all about it, which then she told me almost the same thing. The part where Toro88 knows and is Teck Yuan's cousin. This babe of mine was closer to Teck Yuan than me to him cause they were schoolmates since kindergarten, so i asked her whether the "cousin thing" is true or a make up. She blardy hell said NO ok~

TORO88 IS OBVIOUSLY A STALKER RIGHT??!
HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN SCHOOLING AT MY SCHOOL THEN NOW CLAIMING SHITS.

After a year, he still continued to "HI" me till today where i have made up my mind to give him a piece of my mind. Though a single "HI" on the MSN would not cost me money and all i can do is just a scroll and a click but hell, you messed with the wrong side of Victoria today. I think i am PMS-ing, fyi.
He "HI"-ed as usual. Then i replied, "Can you stop msn-ing me?! I don't even know you and it is annoying ok." *shows middle finger* He then replied, "LCLY. Fuck" -_________________-
My patients has it's limitations! He was the one harassing me with all the MSN spams for all this years and now just a piece of my mind then say i LCLY and fucked me!!?

NO WAY I AM GOING TO LET HIM LOOSE, FER SHURE'!!

*ps: my replies ahead would be a very offensive one, so please be ready heart soul and mind and feet and hand and whatever if you wish to continue. thank you.*

My replies was::

"What turf! suddenly say i LCLY! C'mon, i don't even know who the hell are you and you have been a spammer to me for all this years. Don't you get tired of it? Hell! Ni nau bu ar, come here and talk na sai with me about Teck Yuan all, you think a give a two shit piece about you ar?! Ma chow hai! Go fuck your own pussy la, oh wait, should be dick but OH WAIT, you don't have one right cause you cry not getting a gf for all this years! I pity you. Have you ever thought of surgery done to your thick and fugly looking face?? That might help you know, not towards me but for chicks and ah gua at chow kit. Ni nau bu ar, don't ever MSN me again else i asked Teck Yuan and his gang to beat you up. Nabeh chow lan jiau ar~"

The moral is, never ever made Victoria Poh angry on her coincidently PMS-ing day. I AM a nice person ok~ Don't judge me according to how i replied to Toro88, that i just blardy pissed off even when i HAVE to type his name. Ok, to safe my own arse, i have decided to paste his picture here!

REMINDER:: THIS IS THE LANJIAU TORO88
SO NOT MY FRIEND/BF/SOMEONE THAT I KNOW/RELATED TO ME.
A TOTAL STUPIDFARKINGANONYMOUSSTRANGER!

*after half an hour find and three friend's pages*



THE FARKING UGLY MSN SPAMMER FUCKTARD!

The Day She Leaves Us

It would be a happy day for me! Lol just joking people Lolwtf~

We did a surprise thing for our FOM lecturer who is going to have a 7 weeks break and she will not be teaching us anymore after that. I, myself, was particularly not in the fancy suave mode towards this teacher and all the hu ha that they made just to create the perfect "Surprise Parting" just isn't my thang too. They want moolah, so moolah i gave. I sometimes think that, it is just a coincident that i am divided to this group and coincidently too that this people love this lecturer.

MUCH COINCIDENCY, NO??

Anyways, took the time and opportunity to camho with teachers, classmates and besttie(fer shure).

the bestties!
I detect massive loads of camho-ers in class so i took the opportunity to be the first! Lol~

The best of the besttie! Lol~
eh goodness! our eyebags ftw! And no, the lekor i managed to resist it and i went hope safely with no fats added! HAHAHA!



a quickie with the teacher and the sporty yet humble clown who finally gave me a "doggie" in which i left it to die in besstie's car! xD



INNOCENT MUCH, NO?? xD



A picture of me and him.
and i am still having this thought that clowns will capture me and then bring me to eerie funny places where there would be eerie colorful colors and then asked me to do stupid tricks that i don't know how to do like pull a hyena out of the hat, etc.

BOTTOM LINE IS...
YOUR'S TRULY HERE IS AFRAID OF CLOWNS.
=X
END OF STORY.



oh! cute! and i have found myself, my elements when i am with this people. It is so much fun and laughters everyday. Not even a day i will go home feeling pissed off or feelings like i want to chop someone's head off.
They are friendly and being overly nice that i sometimes beh ta han! Lol~

While we are busying in front with pictures and clowns and whatsnot, this people are...



GAMBLING WHAT TURF! DIN CALL LA~
"CHOR AR CHORR ARR"
"CHEH! KAM DAI GEH?"
"PASS LO, NGOR DOU MOU.."
"*tut* LEI KAU SAI LO~"
"LAST CARD"

Familiar right people?! Now now~ don't act innocent! Lol~ I sees all you all guilty faces!



IT'S ALRIGHT~, IT'S OKAYY~
"fuah!! lat pai lo! so yau yeng!! chor di need to lat pai geh meh??"



the making of Reddy(my new dog) which will deflate after two weeks! roflmao! xD so pathetic la!



TADAA!! Thus thou was born! And your elements are red thus you shall be named Reddy who will turn bloody after two weeks! xD

I AM SO SO SO INTO RED THIS DAYS! IT SHOUTS SEXAAAYY!

will you piggy reddy to the cardy!
hahaha wtf! so cute!

NONETHELESS...



Thanks for everything and the "guidelines" that you have gave us Miss Wong. If it is not for the existence of your "guidelines", i wouldn't have get B for my Fundamentals of Selling. So more "guidelines" via Facebook or messages ok?! *winks*

Spend Frenzy

I am now (again) officially broke. Ok~ I AM ALWAYS BROKE WHAT TURF!

Finally got my Mp4! No need to use sucky handphone to listen to musics anymore!

My new and white (still) Mp4. Not Ipod la~ If i could afford that then i wouldn't be 24/7 365 days broke ok~



smexy much??!
They have other colors too, namely...
Blue(more like turquoise), black, grey.
PINK OUT OF STOCK! WHAT TURF!

So i thought i wanna grab my new baby a skin protector which is obviously, i wanted a PINK one. Then mahai! Ladyluck don't know flew to where, even the skin is outta stock! No choice but to leave baby naked in the mean time. Hope she don't get Chee Cheong Fun stew, turns into yellowish, or gets scratch when inside my bag and be very patient and stays dandy till i get the pink skin..

I WILL GET IT ASAP!

That something to figure when purchased white stuffs! But white (besides pink) is chio lo!
And the black one, i saw, it is ew! Though i love black. I wear black everyday. So i vowed, my things/accesories/things that i used, if possible, NO BLACK! Cause if not, people will think that i am so dull and some emo siut freak that only adorns black.

Fact that i am not. I am so bubbly! Lol what turf~

Then! Finally i can talk to other people through my phone without using headphones! Muthafuckingly hate China headphones! It's like China people has effing big earhole that they have to design a super large earplug. My earhole not big ok~ The blardy thing always cut into my ears and it's omfg pain!

With the new baby, NO MORE SUFFERINGS!!
AND AND AND~

I IZ CAN HAS TONS OF SONGS STORED IN AND VIDEOS TOO!
OH~ DID I MENTION THAT I CAN STORE GAMES TOO?!
AND AND AND!

I CAN GO ONLINE TOO!
(but i don't know the setting what turf)