I smiled. And always will be smiling or not, laughing. Non-stop. But I don't care that people think that i am crazy for laughing or just simply being amused at things or speech that might sound lame and not funny to others, but it is too me.
People including my family members always assumed that i had no worries at all cause I always laugh things off. When i fall down, i laugh at myself for being silly and tripped over. When i failed my exams, i laugh about it and say that God gave me a slow brain, what to do?. When people around me scold and framed me for no reason, i just shut up and still laugh it off hoping for things to get better. Truth is, when i fall, i feel pain but i still laugh cause i don't want others to be pitiful towards me cause i am not pitiful. When i failed exams, I am so sad, sad beyond words so i laugh it off trying to fool myself wishing that it is all going to be alright.When i get misunderstood for things that i don't even know what happened, you all will never know the feeling of my heart that is crushed beneath all the heavy burdensome lies that people talk about me.
I had live my 19 years of life smiling and laughing in no matter what situation, hoping for a better turn out but people just don't appreciate.
The always smiling me doesn't mean that i got no worries. The always smiling me doesn't mean that i got no thoughts of my own. The always smiling me is just to hide the inner true me.
Sigh~ So i will just SMILED. no more SMILE.
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Awesomely Madness!
Mad hot today and the few days ago and the few weeks ago and the few months ago! Can die what turf! And burn fats! Lol~
Today's class was "awesomely" boring! It's like today is super special that none of the class interest me! Not even Business Law! Let the picture do all the explanation and here are my say of "When You Know You Chose The Wrong Course To Be In!" by Victoria Poh Must cite la~ Or else people go copy right it themselves! xD
when friends start to camho you and you just strike a pose and say "Cheese"!
In her case, its "HAHAHAHAHAHAH"! Lol~ Madness!
when you got so bored of camho-ing people and things around you, you start to camho yourself! xD
see my pink nails! chio or no?!
when you rather sacrifice sleeping time and think that you can sleep in class and still pass with great grades! Ain't this girl and besttie of mine super awesome!
So i shall name her the Sleeping Ho! Lol~
when everyone is misusing the computer even though there were no internet connection, they some how find simple web building tools like paint and start to just sit there and do coloring!
Lol what turf! I still love them all!*muackx*
btw, realized that a lot of computer are not on?!
That is how TARC's computer lab is~ Got loads of computers, but can't use! Double sweat!
when you start to camho with friends that sits a sit away from you!
see my sepek eyes! Lol~
the multi million dollar capture! Lol~
Love ya all! continue reading my not so interesting post ok!?
Bye for now!
Today's class was "awesomely" boring! It's like today is super special that none of the class interest me! Not even Business Law! Let the picture do all the explanation and here are my say of "When You Know You Chose The Wrong Course To Be In!" by Victoria Poh Must cite la~ Or else people go copy right it themselves! xD
when friends start to camho you and you just strike a pose and say "Cheese"!
In her case, its "HAHAHAHAHAHAH"! Lol~ Madness!
when you got so bored of camho-ing people and things around you, you start to camho yourself! xD
see my pink nails! chio or no?!
when you rather sacrifice sleeping time and think that you can sleep in class and still pass with great grades! Ain't this girl and besttie of mine super awesome!
So i shall name her the Sleeping Ho! Lol~
when everyone is misusing the computer even though there were no internet connection, they some how find simple web building tools like paint and start to just sit there and do coloring!
Lol what turf! I still love them all!*muackx*
btw, realized that a lot of computer are not on?!
That is how TARC's computer lab is~ Got loads of computers, but can't use! Double sweat!
when you start to camho with friends that sits a sit away from you!
see my sepek eyes! Lol~
the multi million dollar capture! Lol~
Love ya all! continue reading my not so interesting post ok!?
Bye for now!
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Something
Something i looked forward too this days though i am not a big fan of it.
Yes, crazy as i am, i was very insightfully delighted to see those big fat fluffy dark clouds that i just feel like running fast and make a super jump up high and hang on to one of the clouds and squeeze out whatever and how ever many amount of water it contained in there.
SEE! LIKE SUPER DARK AND GOT ALOT RIGHT~~~
SURE HEAVY STORM RIGHT~
but~
what turf~ it did not rain.
and it made the world hotter! what turf~
Yes, crazy as i am, i was very insightfully delighted to see those big fat fluffy dark clouds that i just feel like running fast and make a super jump up high and hang on to one of the clouds and squeeze out whatever and how ever many amount of water it contained in there.
SEE! LIKE SUPER DARK AND GOT ALOT RIGHT~~~
SURE HEAVY STORM RIGHT~
but~
what turf~ it did not rain.
and it made the world hotter! what turf~
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Another Vox!
Hell yes! There is another vox online and that is not me. It is not even my own hosting domain what ever what ever, but i got surprised to see vox.com when i vainly tried to google myself. Instead, i got to Vox, or something like that the link. If the link doesnt work, just google Vox!
To add to the irony of it, i still name the blog Voice of Expression and i still name myself vox. Surprisingly, that name is still available and the blog add too. So i am going to stick to it and try my very best to update here and there. In fact, i updated a post at vox.com and now i am updating here. Sometimes i feel so stupid that i had to tell of the same thing twice at different places. First, it made me sound like a despo and am begging people to please notice me and read me. Well, hello~ News flash, I am not! And i will not be attn seeker. Hell no! Secondly, don't you all just feel dumb and annoyed that you have to repeat things twice, let the arena of different place to stand.. Well, i feel that it is stupid and actually a waste of time. Though i know some would just copy paste! Whst turf~
So yes, the bottom line is i would post twice of the DIFFERENT thing on the DIFFERENT blog site. that is if i update la ok~ What turf! This days i had only Malaysian Law assignments for breakfast, Business Communication studies for lunch and Fundamentals of Marketing for dinner. I even had supper lately with my Web Page Design for Marketing. Ain't my life cool! Makan buku, tidur Buku, main Buku!! lol~
If you all want to be Vox, then you all could visit the another side of me here at Voice of Expression which is the second blog! Who wants to make a bet that Vox can't last long with two blogss????!
To add to the irony of it, i still name the blog Voice of Expression and i still name myself vox. Surprisingly, that name is still available and the blog add too. So i am going to stick to it and try my very best to update here and there. In fact, i updated a post at vox.com and now i am updating here. Sometimes i feel so stupid that i had to tell of the same thing twice at different places. First, it made me sound like a despo and am begging people to please notice me and read me. Well, hello~ News flash, I am not! And i will not be attn seeker. Hell no! Secondly, don't you all just feel dumb and annoyed that you have to repeat things twice, let the arena of different place to stand.. Well, i feel that it is stupid and actually a waste of time. Though i know some would just copy paste! Whst turf~
So yes, the bottom line is i would post twice of the DIFFERENT thing on the DIFFERENT blog site. that is if i update la ok~ What turf! This days i had only Malaysian Law assignments for breakfast, Business Communication studies for lunch and Fundamentals of Marketing for dinner. I even had supper lately with my Web Page Design for Marketing. Ain't my life cool! Makan buku, tidur Buku, main Buku!! lol~
If you all want to be Vox, then you all could visit the another side of me here at Voice of Expression which is the second blog! Who wants to make a bet that Vox can't last long with two blogss????!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Oh My God
Title will be a tiny winny bit of misleading i guess~ But well, your author here is also a tiny winny bit lazy for words so i shall picturized it all for the few days that i had not blog. Picture is random and not in any order..
OHMYGOD!
The famous durian and coconut cendol in Malacca that i ate the other day and i still can taste the taste of the rich durian in my mouth.
And no, i BRUSHED my mouth ok~
OHMYGOD!
The super fake and commercialized Malacca tree! So fake and so commercialized how Malacca has been and i feel that they are on this tiny winny bit of being too over commercialized in promoting the greatest Land of History in Malaysia till they almost stappled everything there
"MALACCA/MELAKA"
what turf~
OHMYGOD!
It is easy and legal to change my own gifted name.
Though i sound like i am some retard kiddy in big human body with that name here~
Can i say what turf~ My name is Victoria with a R-I-A, not L-I-A~
OHMYGOD!
It seems that my new classmates adorns and loves black as much as i do too! Now i have every reason to shout to the world telling how i very the love my classmates!
And they ARE my elements! Love~
*eh got X on my table like X-Men wtf* xD
OHMYGOD!
Now i'm speechless, over the haze i can't see ya~
So don't blame her if she knock ya~
Cause we'r all blinded by the haze~
OHMYGOD!
FAAAAATTTTT!!!
OHMYGOD!
FAT #2
And yes, i post two fat picture of me cause i like to humiliate myself like that
!
what turf~
OHMYGOD!
The famous durian and coconut cendol in Malacca that i ate the other day and i still can taste the taste of the rich durian in my mouth.
And no, i BRUSHED my mouth ok~
OHMYGOD!
The super fake and commercialized Malacca tree! So fake and so commercialized how Malacca has been and i feel that they are on this tiny winny bit of being too over commercialized in promoting the greatest Land of History in Malaysia till they almost stappled everything there
"MALACCA/MELAKA"
what turf~
OHMYGOD!
It is easy and legal to change my own gifted name.
Though i sound like i am some retard kiddy in big human body with that name here~
Can i say what turf~ My name is Victoria with a R-I-A, not L-I-A~
OHMYGOD!
It seems that my new classmates adorns and loves black as much as i do too! Now i have every reason to shout to the world telling how i very the love my classmates!
And they ARE my elements! Love~
*eh got X on my table like X-Men wtf* xD
OHMYGOD!
Now i'm speechless, over the haze i can't see ya~
So don't blame her if she knock ya~
Cause we'r all blinded by the haze~
OHMYGOD!
FAAAAATTTTT!!!
OHMYGOD!
FAT #2
And yes, i post two fat picture of me cause i like to humiliate myself like that
!
what turf~
The weather is wilting me every by the second now and god, the haze~ I thought i got allergies with my geolens cause i see things at a very unclear sight and i was worried sick! Then only i realized that the haze got worst as days goes by...
Even after a heavy storm. Only God can create a miracle and clean the air now.Fast.
Even after a heavy storm. Only God can create a miracle and clean the air now.Fast.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
And Then
And then she decided that she was too lazy to blog about her last two days in Malacca with the reason that she is busy with her assignments and tutorials but has the time to online as soon as she reach home.
And then she decided to not continue her 365 project but just to continue doing normal post with the reason that she always need to memorize the number of the post before hitting the "New Post" tab and then quickly jotting down the following number before her puny brain forgets. Also with the reason that she does not blog constantly now due to procrastinationS, she has lost count, literally, with the amount of post that she did and how much she need to continue. Lastly, she still don't get the difference of that project with the normal blog post, with the exception that we jot down AGAIN the date that Blogspot.com has for our post. Ridiculous ain't it??
And then, she was so angry today and she burst all her unhappiness and sorrow and frustrations to the uncle that sells book at her college canteen. Partly was his wrong because he seemed and sound like he doesn't want to sell the Malaysian Law book to her and kept making her go asking for it hour by hour day by day~
Her outburst also sourced from her tension-ness with her new college semester and she seem to be unable to keep up with the pace pathed by her other collagemates! She wants a really good long vacation in Bali and does spa cheaply, everyday~
And then to make her day today even worse, her wisdom toothS had finally realized the boredom of being engulfed by gums and decided that today is the best day to keep on continuing growing out~ and might last for the next week, or the next two, or the next three? FML~
I can't even open my mouth to talk, laugh, chew, bite with having the tingle of pain! Does God take away wisdom tooth miracously if i be a good girl and ask and pray everyday, day and night?
And then the public transport were the only thing that finally made her sigh in a sigh of relief when it came aften 5 minutes of her waiting and reached home earlier than expected. But fml too cause i had been in college for 9 hours straight for classes and i might sumarrize myself as NERD! NO WHAT TURFFF~
There were so many "and then" in life that made us kept saying "if only i knew"... Coincidence never exist, i believe~ I believe that eveyrthing moves and rotates around with a purpose made and assigned by the hands above.
*her last~ And then he eyes now has this prickly pokey feeling and it is annoying shit ok!!! Fuck weh! So i am going to go sleep now and keeps eye close~
And then she decided to not continue her 365 project but just to continue doing normal post with the reason that she always need to memorize the number of the post before hitting the "New Post" tab and then quickly jotting down the following number before her puny brain forgets. Also with the reason that she does not blog constantly now due to procrastinationS, she has lost count, literally, with the amount of post that she did and how much she need to continue. Lastly, she still don't get the difference of that project with the normal blog post, with the exception that we jot down AGAIN the date that Blogspot.com has for our post. Ridiculous ain't it??
And then, she was so angry today and she burst all her unhappiness and sorrow and frustrations to the uncle that sells book at her college canteen. Partly was his wrong because he seemed and sound like he doesn't want to sell the Malaysian Law book to her and kept making her go asking for it hour by hour day by day~
Her outburst also sourced from her tension-ness with her new college semester and she seem to be unable to keep up with the pace pathed by her other collagemates! She wants a really good long vacation in Bali and does spa cheaply, everyday~
And then to make her day today even worse, her wisdom toothS had finally realized the boredom of being engulfed by gums and decided that today is the best day to keep on continuing growing out~ and might last for the next week, or the next two, or the next three? FML~
I can't even open my mouth to talk, laugh, chew, bite with having the tingle of pain! Does God take away wisdom tooth miracously if i be a good girl and ask and pray everyday, day and night?
And then the public transport were the only thing that finally made her sigh in a sigh of relief when it came aften 5 minutes of her waiting and reached home earlier than expected. But fml too cause i had been in college for 9 hours straight for classes and i might sumarrize myself as NERD! NO WHAT TURFFF~
There were so many "and then" in life that made us kept saying "if only i knew"... Coincidence never exist, i believe~ I believe that eveyrthing moves and rotates around with a purpose made and assigned by the hands above.
*her last~ And then he eyes now has this prickly pokey feeling and it is annoying shit ok!!! Fuck weh! So i am going to go sleep now and keeps eye close~
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Malacca Prophetic Seminar
This is such a back date post that i procrastinated for 4 days to do this post with the reason that i am too tired and i have loads of things to do, which i don't, for the time being and just wasted my time Bejeweled Blitz-ing ... FML~
oh wait! I just counted! I procrastinate three days only! Fuu~
This was a Thursday, where i got class till 6.30 p.m but i skipped it and quickly rushed down to Kuala Lumpur and waited for mum and drove all the way back to Cheras just to bathe and then out again, heading straight to Puduraya Station. My first time there and i think it is awesome, minusing the funny smell, the overcrowded-ness, and the amount of foreigners there! It was like an old fashioned untaken care of mall in the station itself! How chio right!
Then we were directed to our bus but this funny ticket man whom directed us to the wrong bus, almost boarding it to Johor! what turf~ Then luckily my aunt realized the accident made and quickly got down before we were shipped there illegally~ Lol~
Finally settled down and awaits the 2 hour drive to Malacca.
Yes, i looked tired i know, i saw the eyebags, i notice the unruly hair~
Don't have to pint point ok~ Lol~
This is my point of view. Me from an altitude!
You know why?? Because! I finally get a wish come true and that is to be seated on a double deckered bus WITHOUT being in London!
Except for the altitude, nothing much impressive about Malaysia's double deckers.
It is fucking small! No place to even walk up and down, or make out! Lol what turf~
SMALL LA~ NOT WHAT I EXPECTED...
oh wait! I just counted! I procrastinate three days only! Fuu~
04/06/09
This was a Thursday, where i got class till 6.30 p.m but i skipped it and quickly rushed down to Kuala Lumpur and waited for mum and drove all the way back to Cheras just to bathe and then out again, heading straight to Puduraya Station. My first time there and i think it is awesome, minusing the funny smell, the overcrowded-ness, and the amount of foreigners there! It was like an old fashioned untaken care of mall in the station itself! How chio right!
Then we were directed to our bus but this funny ticket man whom directed us to the wrong bus, almost boarding it to Johor! what turf~ Then luckily my aunt realized the accident made and quickly got down before we were shipped there illegally~ Lol~
Finally settled down and awaits the 2 hour drive to Malacca.
Yes, i looked tired i know, i saw the eyebags, i notice the unruly hair~
Don't have to pint point ok~ Lol~
This is my point of view. Me from an altitude!
You know why?? Because! I finally get a wish come true and that is to be seated on a double deckered bus WITHOUT being in London!
Except for the altitude, nothing much impressive about Malaysia's double deckers.
It is fucking small! No place to even walk up and down, or make out! Lol what turf~
SMALL LA~ NOT WHAT I EXPECTED...
Reached exactly thw hours later, with no R&R that almost cause me to pee in my pants all the way there and the fucking sit is so unadjustable cause the space is equals to no space, i nearly broke my neck! xD
Greeted by my another aunty and was taken back for a good night rest~ A room by myself! wee~
I should count this as the first day. Woke up really early cause i am not used to other people's things especially bed. So had a great long morning chat with the aunty that i feel i am so near the twilight of being an aunty! Lol~
Greeted by my another aunty and was taken back for a good night rest~ A room by myself! wee~
05/06/09
I should count this as the first day. Woke up really early cause i am not used to other people's things especially bed. So had a great long morning chat with the aunty that i feel i am so near the twilight of being an aunty! Lol~
To church then!! And the folks here are really very different from my own church. People here all worships like nobody's business and they don't mind kneeling down and shouting out loud in praises~They just enjoy worshiping God. How i wish my church people would just leave their ego down and worship like there is no tomorrow! That would be awesome right!
Then they had this really big space outside meant for cafeteria purposes, for us to just sit down, eat and talk..
Where there is food, they will be crowds...
How come i don't see that in many needy homes~ PEOPLE~
Their senior pastor, Pastor James who married a Chinese lady named Pastor Maggie..
The founder of Prophetic Seminar, Pastor Paul Ang who married an Indian lady named Pastor Christina Ang
Invited speakers from India which is very comical and i did not sleep and listened through out! How awesome!
The super duper awesome band and the cute saxophone guy! Oh my god, i'd fell for any guy who knows how to play the saxophone!
The handsome yet talented song leader which i got a so not flaterring picture of him here singing! Great awesome voice~
The two beautiful sweet voice back up singers!
Excuse my big flab! Lol~
Then they had this really big space outside meant for cafeteria purposes, for us to just sit down, eat and talk..
Where there is food, they will be crowds...
How come i don't see that in many needy homes~ PEOPLE~
Their senior pastor, Pastor James who married a Chinese lady named Pastor Maggie..
The founder of Prophetic Seminar, Pastor Paul Ang who married an Indian lady named Pastor Christina Ang
Invited speakers from India which is very comical and i did not sleep and listened through out! How awesome!
The super duper awesome band and the cute saxophone guy! Oh my god, i'd fell for any guy who knows how to play the saxophone!
The handsome yet talented song leader which i got a so not flaterring picture of him here singing! Great awesome voice~
The two beautiful sweet voice back up singers!
Excuse my big flab! Lol~
Ok~ i shall continue my days 2 and 3 in the next post cause the uploading of the photos are melodramatically slow and i got better things to do than to wait it load.
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